InsaneJournal

Current mood:	starving
Current music:	Shiny Toy Guns - Stripped

those who love you will always love you... no matter the sin on your shoulders
My first post here. I figured; a new journal for a new start. I'm sure I'll go back and post on the others from time to time, for memories sake... or hell, for icons' sake, whatever, but I wanted something fresh... Something new. Technically 'exodus' is a large group of people, but I've never really... used it that way? I mean, I have, but I also like the meaning of it for one person. There was an "Exodus" card in a fanfic (which was sort of like a tarot card) I read, and they said that the meaning of it, for the person the card was pulled for, was that it "represents a journey to a conclusion. You get yourself together and make a decision. You travel a great distance".

So, 'Daily Exodus' is just how it would sound, or at least to me. A daily coming to terms with everything.

The actual title (presently, and possibly tentatively), is 'PRIDE // a sad journey', a song by AKINO from the anime 'Genesis of Aquarion. I'm learned to have more pride in myself. To have more pride in my feelings, even if it means that I have to betray the feelings of people who are extremely important to me... And thus the last part 'a sad journey'... Its not a desire to betray and leave those people and those things behind... that innocence behind, but it seems like something I feel I've been pushed into doing. No choice, but to move foreward. Again, we come to my exodus.

I scoured through quite a few songs for the subtitle... Finally, I decided on lyrics from Madonna's 'Jump', which I became oddly addicted to. The beats a bit repetitive, but catchy enough, the lyrics though are pretty deep and inspiring, really. Plus, the bit that I put as the subtitle connected well with the main title, I thought. They're pretty self-explanatory, though. For the longest time I've felt that way... I've always wanted to leave. I had a dream of it really; that I would save up enough money to by a ticket, train, or plain whatever it was, and go. Maybe tell my family, but otherwise, just leave. In recent years, the dream has faded... I became so smogged down by the day-to-day life... that I nearly forgot about it. When my boyfriend came into my life again, though, that began to change. We talked about wanting to get out of Michigan... live somewhere else. The dream began to become real again. I became determined again.

Finally the title of my friends page. 'Take your only fight, before you take a side', was a lyric from Fair to Midland's 'April Fools and Eggmen'. It was always a catchy tune, but I never really cared for it too much, until the friend who sent it to me and I parted ways. That line was inspired by that, too... With friends, its my warning to myself, and maybe even to them. Don't take a side. Pick your OWN fight. Thats what I ended up having to do... Even though it left me feeling alone in a way I hadn't felt before.



What I see in my heart's eyes was the end of the world I once forgot
What I heard in the road of darkness is a voice of someone calling me

If the journey of sorrow starts when we transcended time
then I would like to offer you this life

In the name of love, only rely on love
To the battlefield we must go
So the flower of miracle can blossom

Everyone who knows their life must end somehow
dream of never-ending dream
People are surely affectionate beasts

Tears are surely words of sadness that one can't say
What dampen your cheek are several million of them

People who know hope and despair seethed all of those in their heart
And it would flow to eternity like an ever-flowing spring

We only hear love, and only love guide us
We roam endlessly while drawing a line of light

We realize bravery is a flame in our heart
And we're walking the path of thorns until we're burned with pride

Oh send this prayer, to his heart
The heart I recieved from the Sky above is only for love...

We hold on love
To the battlefield we must go to
So the flower of miracle can blossom

With the name of love, with the honor of love
I'll do what my soul wants me to do until I'm burned with pride


(spoken):
There’s only so much you can learn in one place
The more that I wait, the more time that I waste

I haven’t got much time to waste, it’s time to make my way
I’m not afraid of what I’ll face, but I’m afraid to stay
I’m going down my own road and I can make it alone
I'll work and I'll fight, Till I find a place of my own

Are you ready to jump?
Get ready to jump
Don’t ever look back, oh baby
Yes, I’m ready to jump
Just take my hands
Get ready to jump!

We learned our lesson from the start, my sisters and me
The only thing you can depend on is your family
And life’s gonna drop you down like the limbs of a tree
It sways and it swings and it bends until it makes you see

Are you ready to jump?
Get ready to jump
Don’t ever look back, oh baby
Yes, I’m ready to jump
Just take my hands
Get ready to, are you ready?

(Spoken:)
There’s only so much you can learn in one place
The more that you wait, the more time that you waste

I'll work and I'll fight till I find a place of my own
It sways and it swings and it bends until you make it your own

I can make it alone(my sisters and me) (repeat 7x)

Are you ready to jump?
Get ready to jump
Don’t ever look back, oh baby
Yes, I’m ready to jump
Just take my hands
Get ready to jump!

Are you ready to jump?
Get ready to jump
Don’t ever look back, oh baby
Yes, I’m ready to jump
Just take my hands
Get ready to, are you ready?


Rest assured their weighing words
In sympathetic ink
And they don't waste their time suspending disbelief
They face the facts with thinking caps
They map out and display
But that's not the only way

Common sense wont pay the rent and doesn't grow on trees
But splitting hairs can get you anything you need
Who would have thought connecting dots might get you to the point

But charity's a rarity
Almost as much as modesty

Take the bait!
And stay however long it takes
Before you lay to rest
However much it takes

Rest assured their weighing words
In sympathetic ink
And i don't waste my time suspending disbelief

Master minds want bottom lines
That map out and display
If i have every better (bitter) fate
I wont be turning in my grave

Take the bait!
And stay however long it takes
Before you lay to rest
However much it takes

Take your own advice
Before you take a side
Look for new ground.

Take the bait
And stay however long it takes
Before you lay to rest
However much it takes
Before you lie and wait however long it take